look at me… jump to conclusions.
look at me… fill up with worry.
look at you… running to hide.
look at you…making excuses.
what would the words be if the silence could be heard.
what would the signs point to if we could see them again
was there something i missed
was there something i said.
im looking for that moment when i lost you …
im searching for the moment that seemed out of time.
i just want to lay down on this floor
i want to cry so hard
til i cant breathe anymore.
this pain sits so heavy
a culmination of them all.
men who came before you..
the ones who left me behind..
the ones who played me out like a fool..
the ones who broke my heart into pieces..
and then left me to die..
missed apologies..
serrated edges of me.
filling up with apathy
suffocated by empathy.
look at me..jump to conclusions.
look at you.. no where to be found..
what would it sound like if you said it out loud..
i know it will sound like–
i dont want to hear..
it will sound like a heart break…
it will be a hollow goodbye.
it took me two weeks..
to memorize your face..
but who knows how long it will take to erase.
wild soul wanderings 