In the stillness, we were moving.

it doesnt matter the stillness that fills your trembling heart.

the cracks fill up like renegades rushing worlds apart.

for you i was your solace when you were coming through the dark.

and i always counted laughter like the measures from a song.

and i always lent you my heart when yours was twisted up into a mess.

counterpart the heavy – blood leaking from my chest.

holding on like mortar – gilded by a metal vest.

and it didnt matter silence, it didnt matter smoldering holes.

not the lesson you had looked for when you were 18 years old.

my finger tips are heavy drag my nails into the earth.

slowly like a swell, then gone all at once.

it doesnt matter the stillness that leads us far apart.

the water fills your lungs heady with a days last goodbye.

you smoked all of my cigarettes as we sat down on that pier.

i close my eyes where i stand.. and still the moment is so clear.

and i search inside my guileless mind. i rack my heart for reasons.

maybe too drunk off the wine – maybe it was the way your laugh reminded me of mine..

and it all happened in the stillness, your soul latched onto mine.

and we didnt matter in the stillness. caught up in the commotion of a rhyme

and even when you’re out in California chasing commas like they’re dreams

and we matter in this stillness. like matter as we move.

and like stardust in my fingers, you and i we’re magic.

we were magic you and me.

nights when i cant sleep

ive let this feeling settle

deep inside my bones.

its turned my insides bitter its turned me out again

against my current everyone could see it was you i loved

i lifted you when i could not carry myself.

i let you undo all that i have done

you have filled up on empty promises

swam in the shallows of my hope

you crash into my ocean like a hurricane

whipping underneath the waves

i cant get back and i am afraid.

i stayed when you were no one.

when you had nothing in your world

your eyes they seemed so tired

when no one held your hand

i gave you all the life inside my soul.

colloquial truths for me

filled with teeth of venom at my throat

i cant hear you again

when youre screaming in my head

think of all the things that you have said

the taste of defeat heavy on my breath

who’s side are you on?

this home is nothing but a broken house.

cold  dark  and silent

resembles reflections of our face

give me breathe into this life

depress me into shame

dimmed shadows we cant retract again

did you chase your demon

into your veins again.

forsaken yourself

a troubled minds disdain

and all the voices inside my head

screaming into the silence

shattering the spirit that once lived inside of me

haunted is my heart now

darkness all around me..

I feel such a sadness in my soul

I cannot fix what we have broke.

ive let this feeling settle..

Settle deep into my bones.